I will be 30 weeks pregnant tomorrow, that means I only have 10 weeks left to...
-Have two baby showers.
-Get all the other stuff that I don't get from my baby showers.
-Make sure my baby has nice WARM clothes to wear and a nice warm bed to sleep in.
-Spend my last few weeks with out a physical baby to take care of, to take care of Marcus.
As busy as that sounds I would love not to be pregnant any more. Yes I want my baby to be healthy and be able to come home with me. But having only a little over 2 months left of being pregnant I feel like crap.
-I can't easily move around any more, it takes a lot of effort to do very simple tasks like getting off the sofa or laying down in bed.
-I have to pee like every 15-20 minutes.
-I'm having a hard time breathing.
-Sleep? what is sleep? I can't sleep on my tummy like I was used to for about 20 years, I can't sleep on my back because it cuts off oxygen and other thing my little girl needs from me. I'm stuck on either my left or right side.
-my boobies are leaking gross right.?!?!!!????!
It's not all bad though there are somethings that I love about being fo shizz up the spout pregnant.
-I'm growing love inside me, I know that doesn't make too much sense, but I love Marcus so so so much words can not describe how I feel about him, being pregnant I am growing a person we will both always love, that is a result of us loving each other.
-I've always wanted to be a mother and be pregnant and have a little baby of my own.
-Feeling her kick and move around inside me is amazing! I wish she could just move around all day!!!!
-I'm in love with a little person I have never met and I've never been more excited to see anyone before.
-I will always have half of me to watch grow and become a wonderful person.
-I will always have some one to call my little girl.
Being pregnant is not everything I thought it would be it's not as easy that's for sure. In the end every stretch mark, sleepless night, nauseated morning, ache, pain, headache, random crying and all the other woes will be more then worth it. Until I can hold my little girl I'm still going to smile at every little movement she makes, sing to her and, tell her I love her and can't wait to meet her. And count down till the last minute till Marcus and I can see this little baby we made together.
I can't wait to hold and kiss my little baby... Until then I'll find things to keep me busy and get my ready for her to be in this world with me and her daddy. &;hearts
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